A Key to a shattered heart

You know who I am talking to! Look just becuz we are apart does not mean that you didnt play your part. I went thru something weird and strange, becuz of my life's stess and game, I had a mental break down that had me in physical and mental pain. Look I no longer reside in Atlanta, GA and I left my phone at my aunts crib so I can't be reached. I owe you an explaination and it will all be revealed. I just for a second to unfold and peal. Don't take this as a joke, I am as serious as can be. Becuz I understand true love is wat you had for me! I'll call you as soon as I can!

She raised me Right

What is the right way to raise a child, well if you ask me, there isn't one. My mother just did the best she could with what she had and haves to this very day. She taught me lessons when she saw that I was ready for them. She showed me things when my eyes were fit to see. My mother raised me like no other. My family isn't and never have been the wealthest of folks. We come from the country, Dumas Arkansas, to be excact. We are like most in and out of bad times; we just want to make it. Also despite we goes on around us we stay happy at heart. I can't tell you what truly got me to this state of mind but I have arrived and I love it. Footz if who I am and this is how I state my mind. I love you all; thanks for reading and God Bless!!!

DGK - ITS OFFICIAL - STEVIE WILLIAMS

This is just one dope azz vid

Star Fucking Hipsters - 3,000 Miles Away (ft. Ethan Suplee)

Yo this Vid is like off the fuck chain.

Tues. Jan. 26, 2010

Life just got real. Real fun that is, I seem to enjoy life and all of it's obstacles a lot more when I feel myself progressing and right now life couldn't be better. For the time being and all. I'm always looking for a way to better myself becuz everyone knows that no one is perfect; but wats wrong with aiming for perfection. You see i might not be perfect but if I aim for it every single day, soon enough in others eyes I'll look pretty darn close. Haha, this is all real kinda of fun to me. Wats else is on the top of my mind, oh if you all didn't know Alicia Keys birthdays was yesterday. Happy birthday Mrs.Keys, I remembered. It's everyone who just aw 4real reading this that are belated. Well yea that's all for now, thankz for reading and God Bless!!!

An Xceptional Man (a message from my brother)

I am 22 years old and in those years I have been an innocent baby, a curious child, a juvenile delinquent, a knucklehead, a stereotypical nigga, a ladies man and a father. I spent 11 years over coming an addiction to weed. I was 11 years old when I started smoking, and 12 when I started drinking. From there it was chasing girls I have broken hearts and can honestly say that I have had my heart broken. I have been on a journey that has brought me to this point. It is my intent that God give me some words of encouragement for anyone who reads this. please leave your comments.

As a young man I harbored resentment in my heart and spirit because my father was never in my life. I saw first hand wat it means to struggle and I blamed him for not stepping up and taking care of his responsibility.So I went in search of male comrodery or acceptance and the only thing that came close to it was hanging out with the knuckleheads smoking and drinkin. Smoking and drinking never took place in my mothers house but a male role model never took place there either. It was among the lost that I learned how males appreciate a woman's beauty; although it was the complete opposite of what my mother taught me about treating women I chose to follow. I labeled women as expendable prey to be stalked and used before they used me. Never allowing myself to get attached enough to have a healthy relationship. As I continued on this path I began to feel the void left by my father grow and I chose to ignore it, but there was something that I decided I would never do; forsake my children.

"Before I formed thee in the belly I knew thee; and before thou camest forth out of the womb I sanctified thee, and I ordained thee a prophet unto the nations. Jeremiah 1:5" God knew the man that I was to become and even in the grasp of the enemy God kept me safe. I don't regret any step that I have taken to this point for it has made me who I am; An Xceptional Man.

For years I followed the lost and when I noticed the influence I had on others I lead them to the same potholes. Until something happened in my life that changed the world I lived in my son was born. Once he was born it called me back to every point in my life that I had a tough decision to make and I found the easy way out. I promised myself never to forsake my children and this was the moment of truth. I knew what I had to do was not what I wanted to do, but a man does not run when the actions he takes yield their consequences. I have 3 memories of my father in the 22 years I have been alive and I knew that i would not put my children through that. It was then that I knew I wanted to change from a boy to a man.

As a father I have come to understand alot of things. Such as I have no power, none of the decisions I make for myself are beneficial, and being a father makes me and xceptional man (not the other way round). There is a sayin "If it looks like a duck, walks like a duck, quakes like a duck then its a duck. So if your father was a deadbeat or a halfway dad then how are you a better father following the same steps? If you are honest with yourself then you will know that it is not possible. Not even the woman that I had children with was my decision God had a plan and no matter how hard I tried I could not stand in his way. I love my children more than I love myself and I am in love with the idea of us being a family, but as a father I must protect my children from all threats. Even if I love them, even if they are family my children are the most important part of me and their spirit and innocence is the most important part of them. "Sheep bring forth sheep." I can not live a life of sin and shortcomings and expect great things of my children. If I am a typical person then my children will be lead astray, but if I follow God then I am AN XCEPTIONAL MAN and my children will also be xceptional. "For out of the heart come evil thoughts, murder, adultery, sexual immorality, theft, false testimony, slander. These are what make a man unclean." Matthew 15:19-20 God is cleaning me and I am becoming an even more Xceptional Man.

Sunday Jan. 24, 2009

I chill'd out today and just relaxed with myself so I can get my mind, you know ready for future achievements and wat not. That was pretty directed lol, yea while dats me and I am really a direct kind of guy. I'm trying to prep myself right now in the skateboard area so I can really come out this summer and show the city of Atlanta, for right now, what I have to offer. I S.B. year round but I truly do not like be cold and I'm a street skater so yea, I kinda hibernate in the winter. All of my skater energy gets all stored and just explodes in the spring. Another thing is that I'm bored and have just decided to take application for new friends, lol. If you would like an incredible young American male as a friend friend; drop me a line, add a comment on the subject, or just e-mail me(I answer, probably). I present this becuz sometimes when I'm free and ready to chill most of my friends are busy and I love that about them. So I'm thinking why not just add more friends. Somebody in this has to be bored when I'm bored. That's it, that's my offer for the year, lol. Thank you for reading and God Bless!